I don’t want to.
I don’t. I don’t. No.
Enough is enough. Pull myself together.
Must get a grip now.
Some resolution. Firm decision.
I make it too easy. God.
I can’t bother with this.
Too much. Too much. Not drowning.
No no no no no no no NO.
I am not.
No.
We will never.
I cannot.
Can’t.
Ever. Ever. EVER.
Feelings be gone. Please.
I plead.
Open my eyes.
Close my mouth tight.
No. No.
Not tonight.
Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop.
Please stop it.
Please.
Turn it off. Get it out.
I want it gone. I want it away.
Now, this instant.
I beg of you.